Art Stuffs Acrylics? 0 Note ♠ 14th Jun

Viola; I posted in a tweet/status that I wasn’t that afraid of acrylics anymore. I guess I’m getting better at it! Recalling how much I struggled while painting Sephiroth the last time, blending colors with soo much errors, dirty patches everywhere; It’s not like my “dirty patches” aren’t there anymore. But I seriously do think that it’s better this time.

Of cuz, it was my mother’s request. Painting on a 50x50cm canvas. I have a reference photo, but i tweeked the colors abit, adding more gold to it. I wanted it to bling a little; ^-^

But things aren’t going on too well, because i’m reaching the end of the canvas, or rather the corner of the canvas, where the drawing is the center of the flower. Where things start to be very complicated. So instead, i’m painting to my own feelings instead of following the photo. You could say I got lazy etc.. and mom started fussing about everything. I suppose quarrels will be coming up sooner and like always during every summer or holiday possible. I cant expect much either, it’s just like, how kid’s always count on their parents for encouragement- but HA- in my case, they will only be pulling me down to my lowest moral possible. Discouraging words could come from them. **sigh** my encouraging words could only come from my friends. So how can you expect me to paint when you are putting me in my lowest emotional state? DUH- whatever, no matter what I say, nothing will go through…. I’d just be that unfilial daughter like you always boost about…..

AND- I’m still jobless. Stressing about that fact. Once again, there are those who always drag me down into almost depression state. YADA I’ve contacted 12 companies already. 9 of them couldnt accept me due to these reasons:

- They already have too many students on their side
- They have nothing for me to do
- Rejected by school
- Whatever they are doing, would bore me to death – meaning – I’m too good

because I’m still stuck- I’ll be having an appointment with the vice principal ( I think that’s her position) tomorrow; hoping that she could help me. YADA~ Frankly speaking, I’m kinda intimidated by her. I mean, she looks nice, sounds nice- but I don’t think she’s that nice. One word from her can change everything. So, i’m pretty worried about this appointment tomorrow. **sighh**   D:  I hope i’d be able to find a job soon! And start next week!

The worst luck of all, i think there’s 2 classmates of mine- found a job WHICH IS AROUND MY AREA! Just for meeting the VP tomorrow, I’d have to pay 17.20euros for the train tickets >n< (dog) I think that’s freaking too much! At the same, I shall go and collect all my assignments,

Tomorrow, I’d be getting this back! I wonder if I managed to get a good score for re-looking/re-desiging Mr Clean/Kleen/Propre~ Oh well- maybe not, cuz the end year result slip has been sent to my house. And for Illustration, I dont have a full-mark average score anymore YADA So maybe I got a 6 or something, pleaseeeee pray for nothing lower than that, I might kill myself in someway.

Let’s see how it goes,~~~

once again; such wordy post- i doubt i can ever shorten it. heh!