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Textures
filed under: Art Stuffs
Sunday, 31st October @ 10:17PM
Latest illustration assignment is to play with textures. So viola, i don’t know whether it’s the right way, gotta check it out with my teacher. I’m quite satisfied with the “floor”, i think it worked quite well. Other than that, i’m not sure what else i should use as textures for the different walls. I can’t exactly repeat the same thing for everything… let’s hope some miracle ideas drops.
besides i’m not even sure when i have to pass up. 
by the way, Happy Halloween 
Oh man, just recalled, an online webdesign to hand up by the 6th of November, so i’m probably in a deep shit again. I will have to see what i can do asap. And crap, for typography too
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Grillade
filed under: Photoblog
Saturday, 30th October @ 11:39PM
A very typical saturday where i’ve practically done nothing. Somehow by the time i work up it’s already 12. So then by the time i laze around and waiting for mum to be back with mushrooms for our “grillade” – i can’t find a nicer word to call this “grill”, “grillade” is in french, which means what the photos are showing 
the leftovers of yesterdays grillade with a couple of mum’s friends. so we decided to continue for today’s lunch. Sad thing is, my jacket’s sleeve stinks of these grilled food 
when i cleared everything on my plate, this wasps-bee thingy came to settle on my plate 
the leftovers again! but this time, everything will be cooked! 
So when it’s heated up again in the microwave it’d taste the same instead of those pan-fried stuffs.
another week passed without ice cream i replaced them with Activia’s Saveurs yogurt. But i guess i shall make an exception for only 1 serving every weekend. LOOOOL i know it’s a step to more ice creams. But it’s much lesser than before. Besides, i managed to resist 2 pretty Haagen Dazs promotions! I think i’m doing quite well! Heh~~~
Luckily monday is a public holiday. If not i wouldn’t be blogging here now But still the same, i haven’t advance alot! Madness, i need a brand new idea for webdesign for my “train station”
So yeah- OH- today is the daylight saving thing. So 11pm becomes 10pm. So it partly marks the beginning of winter, when it starts to get dark from 5pm 
Lesser sunshine till the next spring! I should start counting down to 18 Dec, the day that i’d be heading back to Singapore!
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design stuck
filed under: design pieces, Journal
Thursday, 28th October @ 10:28PM
bad sign! ever get those huge blocks that disables you to do anything for the day? that’s what i’m getting today. Maybe it’s still because of my おたく-ness, but then can’t do anything to it… supposing all my homework for next week. I haven’t exactly advanced a lot. The only thing i did was finishing my “favorite illustrator collection PDF”, my teacher requested it for the 8th November. With a minimum of 10 different artist. I have dozens to name. Thanks to deviantart!
So then, there’s an assignment for next tuesday. A leaflet for a…. erm- sort of book store’s events… etc, But i’m totally stuck at what to do. So i only managed to get out something like this. Incomplete. It’s supposed to be recto-verso too. This is a verso. A3 sized, gotta print it out and fold it! This also means that i’m quite behind time.
Recently, i wonder if it’s a good idea to post whatever that i’m doing online, here. I mean, will my ideas be stolen? Very interesting question isn’t it? But i doubt that i will stop posting. It’s too fun to stop 
Besides whatever that i’m posting here is also a way to keep my own records. Since i can’t exactly keep a hardcopy diary… and besides, how to keep these screenshots? Printing them on papers would be a pure waste of ink and money!
Instead of doing serious work, i feel like finishing this! I had it quite sometime now. In fact, i spent one of my illustration lessons painting Bommie. LOL How naughty, but that was because I was waiting for the teacher to reach my table to valid my work and see if i can further improve it, ( the erm- portrait book cover assignment ). Unlike my buddy who is soo capable of painting in sketchy styles, i wanna give it a try too. But look at it, it looks like a fail piece. Soon i will be dropping into the realistic look 
Oh well- give it a try first.
I think i will continue my rants then….
This isn’t the most perfect drawing i’ve ever done. Cuz partly, this piece of “painting” broke one of my principles that I WILL NOT DRAW someone WHOM I KNOW REAL LIFE. Why, because it’s difficult, i will always feel that’s there’s something wrong with it. It doesn’t resemble the original person, it turn ugly.. it’d be a like horribly failed piece…. I don’t know how to put it into words. But another thing is that, it’s totally DIFFERENT FROM HOW I’D PAINT SE7EN…
This is a present for mum. It was her birthday last saturday. I wanted to give her a surprise, since she always rant and nag about how i don’t consider her feelings. I had a difficult time “stealing” her old photos. Oh one thing to clarify, she always ask me to paint her portrait when she’s younger. So yeah, i had to steal her photo. Mission almost failed, because i almost couldn’t finish it on time. But somehow i did. By sleeping lesser for a non-school-homework on weekdays. So viola, went to get it printed on friday. Friday night, packaging and wrapping up.. Saturday night, when mum opened her present. Well, my brother already know what i prepared before hand, so he already started critising that the present’s crap. Thanks for someone who didn’t even bother to get anything by giving an excuse that “I don’t have money” 
I interrupted by telling my parents, if you start to criticize like mad, i will never ever do something for you again. Then the next thing i got, “oh is this me? it doesn’t look like me. oh, why do you make my face look so fierce?”
…………………. (tick tock tick tock tock… listening to the clock hanging on the wall)
AWESOME, not even a thank you.
then on another hand, dad started saying, oh this is the most awesome present to prove that my money for your school fees is well spent. seriously… wtf. i’m getting pissed with all that crap of wasting your money etc etc. Yes, i suggested and wanted to go to my current school and start to like france a little. But in the beginning you didn’t approve of this school because it’s expensive. But in the end, you allowed. Since you decided for me to go to my current school then please stop complaining and half-scolding me every time when a letter comes and says about school fees. DUH!!!! Thank you for making me feel all miserable inside because i can’t do anything about the expensive-ness of this money-sucking school. Thank you for making me want to get out of school quick and earn money, which means moving out too. How i wish i can STOP depending on him for all the heavy expenditures. But right now i can’t do anything. So basically, i’m totally helpless.
so overall, thank you for turning me into the world’s worst daughter to the whole world. once again making me feel miserable and pathetic. then sometimes start showing off about how great i am in arts when i suppose you don’t even care about what i do. then i get pissed off because of that, you will scold me too. I won’t deny that i’m quite lazy at times. You all love to think that i don’t give damn about you but if that’s the case why should i even care to give you a surprise for the portrait? and ended up getting heartbreaking comments. More like, have you tried to think the way i do?
I know i should get used to things by now, but somehow i just can’t do it. Because i simply don’t know how to “heck care” and when i did, for a short period of time, i got scolded again. Awesome.
Now that i’m on a week’s break. I’ve been facing the computer whole day coding designs and stuffs, then there you go getting pissed of me for facing the computer for your so-called-16hours. Then again, what do you expect me to do? look at the wall or the garden and code inside my brain? Will the web layout appear like it has to be? I had my day off sunday by relaxing and watched a drama the whole day, you get pissed off too, saying that if your laptop dies, i’m not gonna get you another one?! DUH, laptops don’t die off because of watching dramas! what about the incident that she didn’t close the bottle nicely and the water leaked and spill all over the back of the car’s “floor” when my laptop is also on the “floor”. I was lucky that my laptop didn’t get wet, but i got shocked like hell because the whole bag was WET.
What has got to do with 16hours of computer and buying Dr Dre Headphones? More importantly, how can you forbid me to buy when i’m buying it myself with the money that i’ve saved up? What’s the link? It’s not like i’m a 3 year old kid. I’m 20 already! Hitting 21 next year. Oh then again, you will want to forbid me to go to Paris with my buddies for the Japan expo AGAIN! that has been 2 years in a row. I’M DEFINITELY GOING NEXT YEAR TO SEE ALL THE AWESOME ARTISTS and buy their artbooks!
Speaking of which… birthdays…. now i feel that birthdays “celebration” with my family is so damn awkward. All thanks to what she said a couple years back. Now home-celebrated birthdays makes me feel miserable or as if there’s a hole somewhere, with the traditional cut-cake session and photographs. So now, i don’t want to celebrate my 21st birthday. Just make it a normal day for me will do.
Man… this rant has been long. it’s been stuck inside for a moment, and everything got accumulated together… the more i dig.. the more i feel like crying the saddest part would be, if ever this whole section got read by people who shouldn’t be reading then- i might get into a deep trouble… getting banned from internet, confiscated stuffs… etc etc.. I don’t know…
it’s all messed up inside me now…
Ask me anything about it tomorrow, i probably forgot everything….