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filed under: Journal
Sunday, 27th June @ 11:08PM
okay; i think my prank went so badly that now half the boys in my class thinks that i’m lesbian? oh well- i thought by putting “in a relationship with” my bff could cut of some unwanted ideas out of some people’s head, as well as a prank to my “dong saeng”
maybe prank isn’t the correct word; but tease instead.
now that i changed my status into “it’s complicated” which kinda makes it look like i broke up with my girlfriend, and some normal people think that it’s cool. i’m just so shocked that my image just shattered like~~~ “zhiaaaaang” the mirror breaks.
but my wanting to shake a certain stalker can’t seem to work 
i got this feeling that the shaking-off is working on the wrong people.
a months’ over since school ended. it’s been a month that i’ve been looking for a company to take me in – without a 100% positive response. **sigh** that interview i’d be going- i really hope that they will be taking me in. i mean, like- i totally have no hope already. they are my last chance.
and i can’t believe how much i’ve slacked over this month. i keep telling myself that i should be motivated to rebuild my site, but thing’s arent even up yet! i haven’t even think of how am i going to sort out with my free premades, free resources etc…… and i’ve got this coming week to complete it! but tomorrow i will have to keep it for mum’s painting. it’s finishing soon. Just that i’m having a bit of trouble painting the core of the flower, it’s soo dark and i don’t know what details i should add 
i’m drawn to many things lately. like character designing, to make-up blogs and tools and of cuz writing tools like sketch books etc. i really really want to get myself a leather-covered book, with white papers in it, but that’s gonna be expensive 
i’m a little addicted to vampires lately, after my friend kept telling me to watch vampire diaries, it’s definitely just like a prolonged-twilight thing~ 
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おたく/オタク II
filed under: Art Stuffs
Saturday, 26th June @ 12:57AM
hehee, it’s finally complete :D
i suppose that there are some errors, and that background which i have no idea what to do with it! 
*sigh* i always get this weird feeling about how something will always look wrong in the finished piece- is it me again???
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おたく/オタク
filed under: design pieces, WIPs
Thursday, 24th June @ 2:31PM
im so stupid im so stupid im so stupid im so stupid im so stupid im so stupid im so stupid im so stupid im so stupid im so stupid im so stupid im so stupid im so stupid im so stupid im so stupid im so stupid im so stupid im so stupid im so stupid im so stupid im so stupid im so stupid im so stupid im so stupid im so stupid im so stupid im so stupid im so stupid im so stupid im so stupid im so stupid im so stupid
i’m seriously so stupid.
i got a call from another company, discussing about the dates for the intern, when they said it’s possible, and i thought THAT’S IT! I’M ACCEPTED, until yesterday; then i found that im so stupid, i’ll be meeting them on wednesday for an interview first. why DIDNT I THINK ABOUT THAT? What if i totally forgot about the interview, and didnt bring my portfolio…..
i’m just too stupid to think about it. and i’m all stressed up for wednesday. 
the other company said that my portfolio’s cool; well than i hope this company, papaye-verte will think the same way too. but i cant help to feel a little nervous and paranoid about how “Not everyone likes my style”
Wish me luck peeps! i really need that luck! If all goes well; then i’d start working on the 5th July.
Besides that I think I should get more motivated into rebuilding my site Come to think of it, it’s really sad to shut down FW forever, i hope I will be able to bring back something even better.
On the other hand, I think i’d be giving myself a better treat :D
Viola my completed’s character’s face. I dunno what to name him. Still hesitating for among a lot of names, like “Asher” or something. And I love him. There are more or less a couple of errors But i’m still learning right? I think I’ve made a hugeeee progress in painting imaginative faces ;D Compared to what I tried last year (I think- which I doubt i will put a screenshot of it now 
It’d be too disgraceful) I changed the eye color, well- I was thinking, if he is Asher, then his hair would be more like red; LOL
And what I have in thought is that, he’s a special elemental-based warrior 
Fighting with combat warrior skills and is able to use magic and the same time; WOOHOO; I’m falling into my fantasy world :D When I’m old and retire from the design world, I shall write my own book HAA 
That’s my later half of my dream
Come to think of it, he has blue eyes and blue hair, and if he’s elemental-based, then he’d be an ice magic user; LOOOL; I need to change his name; But what? **sighs** before I can find him a new name, I can’t exactly show him off in Deviant art! LOL
And i wanted to give him long hair, but guess this hair will do. Long hair will be given to Asher, until the time he is born; Haha I’m like already laughing at myself;
Then here comes the おたく/オタク {otaku} part. I’ve been having a lot of urges to paint whatever cool manga scans that I’ve been reading. Right now I’ve decided on Kurosaki Ichigo’s Scan :D
Taaadaaa!! It’s not completed yet, I’m left with his long hair and his clothes. I’m not sure if this is how i’ve imagined, maybe not. Cuz I wanted it to be a little more realistic. But I suppose I can’t make it realistic if i want to stick to the original eye-style.
I cant wait for it to be completed.
I wonder if I print it out on A4 paper, with lamination, and start selling, I wonder if there’s any Bleach fans who would want to buy? Maybe I should try it out and post on Deviant art!